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[Dec. 23rd, 2009|11:26 pm] |
I can't believe how late it is. I am going to get almost no sleep tonight. I have a 2 hour drive tomorrow if the roads are good, probably 5 hour drive if the roads are bad. And then I am not going to be getting a lot of sleep tomorrow night probably.
I spent all day making applesauce. Seriously, all frickin day. And I didn't even make as much as I hoped. Of course, it would have been better had I not accidentally burnt the first batch- 5 16 oz jars worth.
My apple jelly that I thought I put too much pectin in? Well, actually everything not canned got really thick jelled up, but the stuff in the jars is still runny looking.
My raspberry jam jelled up fine though.
Not I'm making a mixed berry jam.
Then I have to clean up and pack and THEN I can get to bed. And it's 11:30pm right now and I have to be up at 5am. |
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[Dec. 23rd, 2009|11:23 am] |
So remember how I had this idea to make food baskets for people for christmas?
Well not only had it turned out to take a lot more time, but I think it may have been more expensive as well.
And making jelly is not as easy as it sounded. I think I put to much pectin in the apple jelly I made last night.... But I read this way to tell if it's jelling up enough, and it continously wouldn't work for me, so I added more pectin....
And sugar cookies took many hours to make, wtf. |
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[Dec. 21st, 2009|11:18 am] |
I really hate going to the doctor. So I got my prescriptions refilled. And got a long lecture about how I eat to much, and I should not do strength training and focus only on cardio because that is what will burn calories.
( cut for more calorie talk )
And of course, after all this she didn't bother running any tests. My kidney tests did not come back last time where they should have been. But why check to make sure my kidneys are working fine when egg yolks and strength training are killing me. |
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[Dec. 17th, 2009|11:45 pm] |
a 6-7 page paper seems like it should be so easy. I use to be able to crank out that many pages so easily and I was just a little bit ago doing 15-20 page papers all the time. But somehow, I just seem to be getting worse and worse at school. I'm a couple hours in and less than a page done, and this is the intro, this should be the easiest.
More and more I just don't feel cut out for school anymore. I look forward to just having a job, no school, just a full time job. |
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[Dec. 16th, 2009|07:35 pm] |
I love the taste preferences netflix labels for me, because they are not ones I would typically use to describe the kind of movies I like.
For example, netflix says I like sentimental father daughter movies.
Today, it says I have a preference for gay and lesbian stand up comedy.
On the other hand, they also decided I had a taste preference for movies with David Duchovny in them because I like x-files.... |
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[Dec. 14th, 2009|04:11 pm] |
exams are tomorrow. Wish me luck.
2 exams tomorrow.
Spanish in the morning that I'm not super worried about but haven't studied for.
And ISS after that that I am really worried about and have been studying all day the last couple days for and I still feel completely unprepared for. if I don't do well on this exam I fail the one class i was taking this semester that I NEED to graduate. |
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[Dec. 7th, 2009|05:19 pm] |
I'm so tired, all I've been able to think about since I woke up ( 2 hours late) is getting back to sleep.
I have an oral exam tonight.
Hoping I pass all my classes this semester!
Stressed out.
Can't believe it's December and there is almost no snow on the ground and it's only really been this week that it's started getting cold enough that I need a coat and hat and such. And it's still relatively warm though.
Am I really in Michigan? |
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[Dec. 6th, 2009|10:23 pm] |
pasta really is cheap.
I decided to do more pastas, and my grocery shopping last time was much cheaper! Frozen veggies and chicken go a lot further when you thin them out with cheap noodles. |
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[Dec. 6th, 2009|12:21 am] |
so, after I went out and bought a dress for tonight and wasted a fair chunk of my day finding one, I get home and party tonight is canceled.
I had also bought wine for the party and decided to try this harvest blend red wine. I opened it and decided to have a glass anyways.... I'm afraid to taste it. It smells a little bit like wet dog :-\ |
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[Dec. 4th, 2009|09:27 pm] |
so I finally had to call maintenance because my garbage disposal stopped working and my sink was backing up as a result. Well, while at, might as well mention the heat.
I hate having to have maintenance come. My apartment was extra crazy mess today, and I feel like every bad habit is on display. It's so embarrassing, which is why I hadn't called about my heat not working- I was waiting till I got my apartment cleaned up. |
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[Dec. 3rd, 2009|06:15 pm] |
Ok after I told my boss that despite my fever I was fine to work and didn't think it was the flu.... now I think I have a flu.
I'm missing Spanish for the second time this week making this my last absence before I fail the class because I feel too sick. |
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[Nov. 30th, 2009|04:15 pm] |
Dear Amy tells rape victim she is a victim of her own bad judgment for being in a situation where it was likely she would engage in "unwanted sexual contact". I don't think engage is the right verb there, to me, engage kind of implies she choice that action, which the "unwanted" clarifies she didn't.
To be fair the advice gets better from there.
And then it ends on a negative note though. "You must involve the guy in question in order to determine what happened and because he absolutely must take responsibility and face the consequences for his actions, just as you are prepared to do. He may have done this before."
I am not comfortable telling survivors they "must"... well, just about anything. Maybe you "must" take care of yourself. But that's all I can think of. Interacting with the person who raped you is kind of a big deal, and she should decide her comfort level regarding that. She does not have to "involve" him if doing so is going to cause her even further trauma.
(what does "involve" really mean btw? Awkward verb again.) |
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[Nov. 30th, 2009|12:48 am] |
So I get woke up today by my one cat, Tess, crying and crying. So I get up, ask what's wrong. She goes to the front door and starts crying. So I open the door and let her on the porch (enclosed porch). So then she walks up to the door to the porch and starts crying. They are inside cats and Tess never shows much interest in going outside anyways. So then I go looking for Blake because I haven't seen him all morning. He is no where to be found. I give Tess some "greenies" snacks which Blake LOVES. He will hear that bag open no matter where in the house he is. He never shows up. So I'm getting worried. I'm home alone, my mom and sister left this morning(apparently because the brakes on our car are completely fucked and the pieces that hold the brake pads on have been slowly falling off). So I call my mom and ask if they were careful not to let Blake sneak outside (because he is the one who tries to get outside) when they left this morning. My mom says she was in the yard this morning working and so he might have snuck out at that time. (when he's on the front porch, if you don't lock the porch door from the inside, he can push the door over and over and get it opened a crack to squeeze out).
So I'm worried now, he could be anywhere. My mom and sister had left about half an hour earlier.
So I go outside looking around the house for him, looking in the street worried he got hit by a car. I start walking toward the house next door and see one of the many outside cats in our neighborhood chilling there. And then all the sudden Blake's head pops up next to him.
Luckily he didn't fight me to get him. I think he is so worried about us picking him up, he doesn't like being picked up, that he decides it's better to just dart back to the front door as soon as possible. |
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[Nov. 26th, 2009|11:59 am] |
what happens to a livejournal community if all the mods leave? I guess there can be no future mods added? Is there any way to delete it?
I should have just deleted this community (a south complex community) but too late now, because I was the mod and I just left the community- no one else replied to take over moderating, because the community is completely dead. And I have no reason to be in the community because I haven't lived in south complex for years. |
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[Nov. 22nd, 2009|06:36 pm] |
In a lot of ways it makes no sense that food assistance start the day you applied, not the month you are approved or whatever. I have $638 for food on my card. Because that is how much I got for Aug ($38 because I applied closer to the end of the month), Sept ($200), Oct ($200) and Nov ($200).
Cool, but I did kind of already eat for aug, sept, and oct. Like I can't take this money and go back and feed myself for sept, it's gone, it happened. I can't even take it and pay off credit card debt that I used to feed myself in September.
I mean, unless you are thinking I was literally starving, had NOTHING to eat for 3 months, and now I'm going to make up for that by eating 3 months worth of food at once? But human bodies don't really work that way. You can't really tell your body to be ok for a few months with no food, because you'll make up for it as soon as your benefits are approved.
Like, I'm not complaining that I have $638 to spend on food. but it kind of doesn't make sense.
I guess it make sense in theory that you aren't being shorted benefits you applied for and were eligible for just because of delay at DHS, but in a way you are because you still don't have those benefits at the times you need them. |
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[Nov. 20th, 2009|02:43 pm] |
lol, so awhile ago I decided to write a long letter to dell telling them how annoyed I am with them and how they are losing business through this bullshit. Bascially. It was like two pages long. lol.
This is the response I just got after ignoring a 1-800 number on my phone (I don't want to talk to Dell right now, I usually don't want to talk to Dell).
Dear Erin,
This is Eswaran and I am a Manager with Dell Technical Support.
I sincerely apologize for the inconvenience and have gone through the complete mail beneath.
I would request you to provide me with your alternate contact number along with the best time to reach so that I can call you and assist you with resolving the issues that you are currently facing.
We value your time and response, if for any reason you have questions or comments; we are delighted to hear from you once again.
Your Reference number for this interaction is 801012250.
Respectfully,
Eswaran Vishwanath
Team Manager - Dell
The problems I'm currently facing that I described in the email is that I hate Dell. lol. Right now my biggest computer issue is that it still makes a noise that sounds sort of like running water whenever it is on, and that my f2, f3, f4, 3, e, d, and c keys occasionally stop working, and then I have to pound on my computer for a little bit and they start working again.
It's not that I have a specific current technical support problem that isn't being addressed, it's the frustration of arguing with technical support all the time. The fact that I have had this computer only 2 years, have had to reinstall my operating system so many times I lost count. It's the fact that I'm on my third hard drive in 2 years. It's the fact that when my hard drive crashed this last time, I had to diagnose the problem myself because when I called technical support the person told me the blue screen I was seeing was most likely a software problem not covered under my warranty, when actually it was the result of my hard drive being shit which is covered under my warranty.
That's the thing, Dell only knows how to deal with an immediate dissatisfaction with service. And this is what I said in my email to them- the most frustrating part is Dell doesn't seem to care that they are losing business because of this stuff. I guess it's just not a significant enough loss for them to make the kind of changes they need to.
Oh, and how about all the possible ways and reasons to contact dell, there is no way to just contact someone in charge with feedback. Makes me feel that my experiences as a costumer there are really important to them!
But I'm not buying a computer from Dell again. I fully expect to have to buy a new computer as soon as this warranty is up, and I think I'm going to go with an apple this time. My uncle is going to be buying a new computer and said he was thinking about Dell but changed his mind hearing about all the shit I've experienced with them. I tell people all the time not to buy from Dell. |
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[Nov. 18th, 2009|09:31 pm] |
So my sister last year the way her landlord did stuff is they designated one person from the group of 5 who was the contact person. Which was a girl names Abby, who my sister was friends with when they started living there, but over the course of the year stopped being friends. So they all paid into the security deposit, but the landlord gave the full deposit back to Abby to split amongst them. Well, Abby never gave my sister back her part of the deposit.
Her argument is that Cara didn't pay equal rent- she had the smallest room so they all agreed when they moved in, that she paid a smaller amount of rent to have the smaller room. Well, after they stop being friends they say "well we think you should start paying equal rent now". Cara says "no, this is what we agreed on. You all want me to pay equal rent, then let me move into one of the larger rooms and you pay equal rent for a room half the size of the others." So she didn't pay equal rent. So Abby is arguing that since she should have started paying equal rent at that point and didn't, the $200 she should have got from the deposit went toward that.
So my sister filed to take her to small claims court for the $200.
Bad part is, Abby's dad is a Judge. Which means that $200 is not that big a deal for him with how much a judge pays, but no, rather than either just pay it or deal with it in small claims court they found a judge to represent her and are moving it out of small claims court. Of course since we have no personal friends of the family who are lawyers who will handle a $200 issue for free, my sister has no lawyer, because it also makes no sense to pay a lawyer for a $200 issue.
It's just so stupid and kind of frustrating because her father is obviously pulling some strings and is also probably friends with all the judges anyways.
But, Abby really has no case. They all paid into the deposit, it should have been split back up among them all as they paid into it. How could any judge possibly rule in Abby's favor? And how can her father not see that too? |
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[Nov. 18th, 2009|08:19 pm] |
HOLY FUCKING YES!
Don't know what the fuck they were doing when they sent me the letter saying my FAP case was denied, but they apparently changed their mind. Mail today- approved! $200/month for food.
Fucking awesome, I can eat!
I'm so happy.
I also got these little black velvet jewelry bags I bought on amazon to put my rosaries in, so I now have three rosaries I can try to sell on etsy for $25. And I'm out of the Mary pieces and crosses, so I'm done with being able to make rosaries for awhile, but, yeah. |
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[Nov. 17th, 2009|08:40 pm] |
I am feeling really overwhelmed today with life. Just everything for some reason. Fighting off massive anxiety.
I missed my spanish class for the 4th time yesterday (7th time and I fail no matter what), and the reason? I was just too exhausted by the time I got home from my earlier class.
The first two times I missed where days I had to work during the time I had class. The second two times where because of feeling sick from being so exhausted. But those two times for being sick where both recent. So I'm getting nervous that I won't make it through this one month left without missing more than 2 more classes. On one hand I feel sure I can do it.I tell myself I know I won't let myself miss 7 classes.
But, I think the problem is, I'm feeling less and less in control of things.
A lot of it is me feeling sicker than usual lately. Despite being able to sleep in on the weekends, and having gotten tons of sleep, I still feel like I'm not getting enough. I'm still feeling exhausted all the time, falling asleep in class/at work- luckily I rarely drive anymore, cause I'm sure I'd be falling asleep driving too. I feel so exhausted I want to cry most of time. I feel really out of it, like I'm on heavy medications, most of the time (and I'm not). Which obviously does not help with classes.
Frustrated that I still have no answer to what the hell is wrong with me. Frustrated that it's gotten to the point that same days I can't walk correctly because of how weak my legs feel for no reason (most days I'm fine, but sometimes I can tell I'm walking weird, and I hate it.) And it's just so frustrating that something that has this big of an impact on my life still has no name.
So I'm just feeling overly frustrated today. Feeling like I can't do shit. Feeling like this is controlling my life.
And I'll be better later but I feel like I'm on a roller coaster. Things start to seem manageable and then they get worse again and I feel like I can't cope, I start to feel a little better- I'm coping better but eventually things get worse again, and so on. |
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